scary part of me

Said I'd be home at eight
虽然说过我会八点到家
But I'm still out smoking cigarettes and drinking
但现在我却还沉溺在香烟和酒水之中
And I told them I don't care about you
我也曾和别人说过我不在乎你的话
But you know that that's not true, do you
但你清楚那都不是真心话 对吧
I guess I'm just in a bad place
我想我大概是处在了两难的境地
I'm doing anything I can to hurt you
我的所作所为都只是在伤害着你
But it's not what it seems
虽然看起来并非如此
It's not what that means
似乎也不是由衷本意
I made it out but I'm broken within
我成功了 却落得心伤累累
Afraid that I'm not who you think I am
只怕我再也不是你眼中的样子
I ****ed it up, let you down
我搞砸了这段感情 让你失望透顶
I'm sorry for what I did
我很抱歉自己曾做过的那些蠢事
I'm a mess, try my best
我已经是一团糟了 哪怕竭尽所能去避免
You don't know what to believe
你不知道还可以相信我些什么了
It's my fault, lost it all
都是我的错 错失了所有 你的信任 你的爱
That's the scary part of me
这就是让我最恐慌的地方
That I don't know me anymore
我再也认不出自己的模样
I don't know me anymore
我一点都不了解我自己了
That I don't know me anymore
现在的我再也不似同曾经
That I don't know me anymore
一点都找不见与旧时何如
And it kills me now
如今最让我悔恨万分的
That I took it all for granted
莫过于曾将一切视作理所应当
For my own self worth
一味的自私自利
Just to ease the hurt that I feel inside
只是为了减轻内心的刺痛感
And I see myself
我看见自己终究成为了
In other people that I never wanted to become
我所憎恶至极的那类人
And I've come so far
我深深迷失在了歧途里
And I've given scars that I'm not proud of
我造成了那些让我无以自傲的创伤
I ****ed it up, let you down
我搞砸了这段感情 让你失望透顶
I'm sorry for what I did
我很抱歉自己曾做过的那些蠢事
I'm a mess, try my best
我已经是一团糟了 哪怕竭尽所能去避免
You don't know what to believe
你不知道还可以相信我些什么了
It's my fault, lost it all
都是我的错 错失了所有 你的信任 你的爱
That's the scary part of me
这就是让我最恐慌的地方
That I don't know me anymore
我再也认不出自己的模样
That I don't know me anymore
我一点都不了解我自己了
I don't know me anymore
现在的我再也不似同曾经
That I don't know me anymore
一点都找不见与旧时何如
I made it out but I'm broken within
我成功了 却落得心伤累累
Afraid that I'm not who you think I am
只怕我再也不是你眼中的样子
I ****ed it up, let you down
我搞砸了这段感情 让你失望透顶
I'm sorry for what I did
我很抱歉自己曾做过的那些蠢事
I'm a mess, try my best
我已经是一团糟了 哪怕竭尽所能去避免
You don't know what to believe
你不知道还可以相信我些什么了
It's my fault, lost it all
都是我的错 错失了所有 你的信任 你的爱
That's the scary part of me
这就是让我最恐慌的地方
(That I don't know me anymore)
我再也认不出自己的模样
I ****ed it up, let you down
我搞砸了这段感情 让你失望透顶
I'm sorry for what I did
我很抱歉自己曾做过的那些蠢事
I'm a mess, try my best
我已经是一团糟了 哪怕竭尽所能去避免
You don't know what to believe
你不知道还可以相信我些什么了
It's my fault, lost it all
都是我的错 错失了所有 你的信任 你的爱
That's the scary part of me
这就是让我最恐慌的地方
That I don't know me anymore
我一点都不了解我自己了 如此陌生疏离 可怖万分