deathbed

When every thought brings so much pain.
每时每刻心中的每一个想法
It's hard to explain.
都会给我带来难以承受之痛
I don't wanna feel anything.
所以我宁愿什么也感觉不到
It's hard to explain.
可我对你却怎么也解释不清
I don't wanna change.
我现在只想一成不变
Something in my brain,
可我的脑海里有一个不知名的东西
Telling me to hate.
它命令我去仇恨一切
All I ever say,
我只有一句话想说
I don't wanna change.
我什么也不想改变
Something In my brain,
可我脑海里的这个不知名的东西
Won't go away.
它不会凭空消失
Far from home, where you'll find me,
如果你去一个很遥远的地方
made my bed and i'll finally lay in it.
你会找到一间 已经整理干净的房子
Lay in it.
和躺在床上的我
Far from home, where you'll find me,
在那个很遥远的地方
made my deathbed and ill finally lay in it.
我已经把我的一切都整理好了
I'll lay in it.
躺在那张床上 只等着死亡降临
Backpacked on my own,rather be ****ed up all alone
独自一个人徒步旅行，因为我不想让别人陪着我伤心
Airplane mode on my iPhone,
我切断了和外界的联系
Running from a careless path I wish I'd never known,
试图逃离那个 我宁愿从没去过的地方
But I know that...
但是我明白...
Everyone that I believed in was holding me back,
我信任的所有人 都只会让我更无法坚持下去
Matter of fact,
有一说一
I wasn't leaving because what I needed was space that I lacked,
我还不想走 我只是需要些空间
I got off track,
我没能找到正确的出路
Don't wanna do it by myself,
我还不想自行了断
But I don't want no help,
但我又不想接受任何人的帮助
The only way's to go away
唯一的办法就是 自己一个人离开
and write a story to tell.
留下我的故事 给你们看吧
Made a promise that I'd love myself
我向自己许下承诺 我发誓
And a promise that I'd break it.
我会更爱我自己 也会毁掉我自己
Made a promise that I'd get better
我发誓 我会在人前假装变好
And a promise that I'd fake it.
也会在背地里 变得更加颓废
Promised myself that I'd give it up,
我发誓 我终将放弃
Give up everything you hated.
你曾经仇恨过的一切
Made a promise that I'd enjoy my life, and a promise that I'd take it.
我发誓 我会享受我的生命 也会从自己手里把它夺走
Far from home, where you'll find me,
如果你去一个很遥远的地方
made my bed and i'll finally lay in it.
你会找到一间 已经整理干净的房子
Lay in it.
和躺在床上的我
Far from home, where you'll find me,
在那个很遥远的地方
made my deathbed and ill finally lay in it.
我把我的一切都整理好了
Ill lay in it.
躺在那张床上
Far from home, where you'll find me,
那是一个离家很远的地方
made my bed and i'll finally lay in it.
我已经做好了准备
Lay in it.
迎接死神的降临
Far from home, where you'll find me,
我独自一人走到这一步
made my deathbed and ill finally lay in it.
是我自作自受 我活该自食苦果
Ill lay in it.
让我一个人走吧