deathbed

When every thought brings so much pain.
每時每刻心中的每一個想法
Its hard to explain.
都會給我帶來難以承受之痛
I dont wanna feel anything.
所以我寧願什麼也感覺不到
Its hard to explain.
可我對你卻怎麼也解釋不清
I dont wanna change.
我現在只想一成不變
Something in my brain,
可我的腦海裡有一個不知名的東西
Telling me to hate.
它命令我去仇恨一切
All I ever say,
我只有一句話想說
I dont wanna change.
我什麼也不想改變
Something In my brain,
可我腦海裡的這個不知名的東西
Wont go away.
它不會憑空消失
Far from home, where youll find me,
如果你去一個很遙遠的地方
made my bed and ill finally lay in it.
你會找到一間已經整理乾淨的房子
Lay in it.
和躺在床上的我
Far from home, where youll find me,
在那個很遙遠的地方
made my deathbed and ill finally lay in it.
我已經把我的一切都整理好了
Ill lay in it.
躺在那張床上只等著死亡降臨
Backpacked on my own,rather be ** **ed up all alone
獨自一個人徒步旅行，因為我不想讓別人陪著我傷心
Airplane mode on my iPhone,
我切斷了和外界的聯繫
Running from a careless path I wish Id never known,
試圖逃離那個我寧願從沒去過的地方
But I know that...
但是我明白...
Everyone that I believed in was holding me back,
我信任的所有人都只會讓我更無法堅持下去
Matter of fact,
有一說一
I wasnt leaving because what I needed was space that I lacked,
我還不想走我只是需要些空間
I got off track,
我沒能找到正確的出路
Dont wanna do it by myself,
我還不想自行了斷
But I dont want no help,
但我又不想接受任何人的幫助
The only ways to go away
唯一的辦法就是自己一個人離開
and write a story to tell.
留下我的故事給你們看吧
Made a promise that Id love myself
我向自己許下承諾我發誓
And a promise that Id break it.
我會更愛我自己也會毀掉我自己
Made a promisethat Id get better
我發誓我會在人前假裝變好
And a promise that Id fake it.
也會在背地裡變得更加頹廢
Promised myself that Id give it up,
我發誓我終將放棄
Give up everything you hated.
你曾經仇恨過的一切
Made a promise that Id enjoy my life, and a promise that Id take it.
我發誓我會享受我的生命也會從自己手裡把它奪走
Far from home, where youll find me,
如果你去一個很遙遠的地方
made my bed and ill finally lay in it.
你會找到一間已經整理乾淨的房子
Lay in it.
和躺在床上的我
Far from home, where youll find me,
在那個很遙遠的地方
made my deathbed and ill finally lay in it.
我把我的一切都整理好了
Ill lay in it.
躺在那張床上
Far from home, where youll find me,
那是一個離家很遠的地方
made my bed and ill finally lay in it.
我已經做好了準備
Lay in it.
迎接死神的降臨
Far from home, where youll find me,
我獨自一人走到這一步
made my deathbed and ill finally lay in it.
是我自作自受我活該自食苦果
Ill lay in it.
讓我一個人走吧