VBS

In the summer of '07, I was sure I'd go to heaven
零七年那个夏天 我感觉生命到头了
But I was hedging my bets at VBS
但我强撑着心跳 活了下来
A preacher in a T-shirt told me I could be a leader
那个穿衬衫的传教士说我适合去布告
Taught me how to build a fire and to spread the word
他教我如何去感染大众 散播这些言辞

到了深夜 人们祈祷着 啜泣着
In the evening, everybody went to worship and weep
双手捧在额前 祈求上帝显灵
Hands above our heads, reaching for God
回到树屋 在你床上嗅着肉果香
Back in the cabin, snorting nutmeg in your bunk bed
你在等自己敞开心扉
You were waiting for a revelation of your own
那些无人知晓的秘密就像烂在你体内的桃核一样
Sedentary secrets like peach pits in your gut
就像封窖在你心脏深处的果酱罐
Locked away like jam jars in the cellar of your heart
总是舍不得品尝 最后白白浪费
Waiting to be tasted and ultimately wasted
你总是开局就将我打败
You were gonna win me over from the start
这诗太糟糕了

我用力忍住不笑出声
The poetry was so bad
你说我给你带来了光明
It took a lot to not laugh
但到最后
You said that I showed you the light
我只会让黑暗更浓重
But all it did in the end
那个夏天你父亲没有将袖口摞起 我想着没那么简单
Was make the dark feel darker than before
你母亲的妆容越来越浓了 定是发生了什么

我说 你出生在这儿定是有上天的安排
Your dad keeps his sleeves down through the summer for a reason
但你就是不愿相信你是幸运的
Your mother wears her makeup extra thick for a reason
你想要入睡 那些思绪会让你一直清醒
When I tell you you were born and you are here for a reason
你的心跳越来越快 越来越强烈
You are not convinced the reason is a good one
你没法去改变什么 但也有办法舒缓情绪
While you're going to sleep, your mind keeps you awake
全音量听着杀手乐队的歌 你会好受点
And it makes your heart beat fast and loud
这首诗糟透了
There's nothing you can do but the only thing you found
我用力忍住不笑出声
Playing Slayer at full volume helps to block it out
你说我给你带来了光明

但到最后
The poetry was so bad
我只会让黑暗更浓重
It took a lot to not laugh
让阴郁的情绪越发深沉
You said that I showed you the light
让苦闷的心绪达到极点
But all it did in the end
Was make the dark feel darker than before
Dark feel darker than before
Dark feel darker than before