Cinephile

他喜欢那些电影
He loved movies
他喜欢看《沉睡》
He loved The Big Sleep,
《大寒》以及《大出意外》
The Big Chill and The Big Easy
他钟爱《教父》中的阿尔·帕西诺
He loved Al Pacino in the Godfather
还有，《吉尔达》中的丽塔·海沃斯
And Rita Hayworth in Gilda
他爱《007》中那场经典的高尔夫对抗
He loved the golf match in Goldfinger
还有《乱世浮生》里的独具匠心
And the sharp twist in the Crying Game
他沉醉于西部电影
He loved westerns where
在那里英雄的道德遭受怀疑
The morality of the hero was suspect
爱情电影中真爱不会被藏匿
And romances where her true love
从电影一开始就在女主角身边
Was there in front of the heroine from scene one
他热爱时代剧
He loved period drama
武士传奇
And samurai epics
政治惊悚
And political thrillers
侦探悬疑
And detective features
但
But most of all
他还是最爱他妻子的电影
He loved movies of his wife
我们的公司总是能给予他
Our firm always gave him the most
最密切的关注
Personal of attention
所以，在他去世时
And by the time he died
他的朋友们也和他一起长眠
None of his friends were left alive
作为他最初的合伙人，我花了一周时间
So as junior partner I got to spend a week
陪他待在皮姆利科（伦敦中心地区）的家中
In his Primlico townhouse
拣选书、西服、家具
Sifting though books, suits, furniture
和六十三卷8毫米胶片
And sixty-three cans of super 8 film
大家都知道他习惯坐在书房
He was known to sit in his study
渐渐陷入冥想
Into the small hours
独自注视着闪烁的屏幕
Alone with the flickering screen
一杯红酒和一片寂静
A glass of wine and the quiet
放映机不停地发出声响
Chattering of the projector
每个卷轴上都用黑色墨水记录着日期
Each reel had a date inscribed in careful black ink
我从头到尾扫视了它们一番
I watched them from first to last
在那个书房里
In that same study where
窗帘被拉开
The curtains drawn and a pot
大吉岭茶摆在我胳膊旁
of Darjeeling by my elbow
他们都可以称为研究肖像
They were all studies
只要你愿意
Portraits if you will
起初，她还很害羞
In the early sequences she is shy
躲在门后面
Hiding behind doors
举起手挡住镜头
Raising her hand above the shot
她的纯金婚戒显得很亮眼
Her plain gold wedding-band prominent
一两卷影片后，她看上去渐渐自如了
After a spool or two she relaxes
她假装与摄像机玩游戏
And begins to play to the camera
在花园里旋转
Spinning in the garden
在头上围上一条丝巾
Swirling a scarf around her head
时而浪漫地飞吻，时而故作严肃地竖起手指
Blowing kisses and pointing a stern finger
在随后的那卷影片里，她是最放松
The subsequent reels are the most intimate
她甚至忘记了自己在拍电影
As she learns to forget she is on film
我们可以看到她在窗边读书
We see her reading at the window
咬着手指，和某人通话
Nibbling her nails, talking on the telephone
慢慢地理着她的头发
And slowly, dreamily combing her hair
在一个睡觉的长镜头中
In one feature length sleep sequence
她的眼皮几乎没有眨动
She barely moves and eyelid
但播了十卷以后突然出现了卡顿
But the cracks begin to show after ten
或是十一卷
or eleven spools
在此之前，她还很舒服
Where once she was relaxed
现在，她看上去有些不适了
She is now uncomfortable in the frame
她的表情，甚至她的整个肢体语言
Her expression, her whole body language
变得小心和警觉起来
Becomes defensive and strained
那些画面还在不停地录着
Still the images continue recording
她还在原来的地方
Her in the same locations
在房子周围的某处，穿着同样的衣服
Around the house, the same outfits
她一只手放在臀部
With a hand on her hip
站在摄像机的旁边说话
She lectures a point beside the camera
她挥舞着手，示意他不要拍了
She waves at him to stop filming
但是镜头没有停下
Yet the footage continues unyielding
卷轴还在继续堆积
And the reels stack up
一枪接着一枪
Repeatedly shot after shot after shot
她慌忙地穿过各种房间
She leaves various rooms
被绊倒在地，她尖叫了
Trapped for a few seconds she screams
在沉默中，撕扯着她的头发
In silence, tearing at her hair
后来，她又去扔东西
And eventually she throws things
他们的婚姻延续了八个半月
Their marriage lasted eight and a half months
以及后来的三十七年
And for thirty-seven years afterwards
他一直坐在书房里，直到天黑
He sat until late in his study
给放映机填充胶片，在微弱的灯光中眨着眼
Feeding the projector and blinking in the half-light
他爱这些电影
He loved those movies