I See Everything
I See Everything -La Dispute
我洞悉了一切 - La Dispute
Like any morning of my
像往常任何一个清晨一样
Junior year
二年级的时光
I stumble in the classroom
我在教室中跌跌撞撞前行
Late but this day I see
已经很晚了，但今日我看到
Faces I feel
脸颊我能够感知
An air like a funeral
坟场般死机的气氛
Like a wake
像大梦初醒
As I sit down
当我恍然坐下
Teacher speaking
老师仍在喋喋不休着
Somewhat sombrely
些许阴郁地
But still confident and calm
但仍旧自信且镇定地
Part eulogy
部分是悼词
Her speech and
她的演说
Part poem part celebration song
部分是诗、部分是庆祝的颂歌
Her warmth and smile
她的温暖和灿烂笑容
She passes photocopies
她将一些复印件
Out to us of entries
向下分发
From a journal
来自一本日记
Kept so long ago
记述着许久之前的往事
She starts to read
她开始阅读
And suddenly
突然
It's 1980
时间拉回到1980年
March 5
3月5日
The cancer is furious
癌症不可收拾地蔓延着
But our son is resilient
但我们的儿子身子坚挺
We have all the faith
我们有着充足的信念
We'll get through this
我们必将熬过这一劫
No matter what the end
无论怎样 （结束）
Treatments are violent but
治疗过程很粗暴
He keeps on smiling
但他一直这样微笑着
It's amazing
多么神奇
Finding joy in the little things
总能从琐事中汲取快乐
April 12
4月12日
Andrew's appetite's improved
安德鲁的食欲渐长
And we thank God everyday
我们每天都在感谢上苍
But still it's hard sometimes
但有时候还是很难以承受
To see him in that scarecrow frame
看到他在那稻草人般的骨架之中
July 9
7月9日
There's a suffering
一丝痛苦
When I look in his eyes
当我直视他的双眼
He's been through so much
他经历了太多
We've all been through so much but
我们都经历了太多但
What incredible resolve
多么无与伦比的坚毅——
Our little boy shows only 7
我们的小男孩展现出，在他只有七岁的时候
Standing face to face with death
与死神四目相对时
He said it's easy to find people
他说很容易找到
Who have suffered worse than him
很多比他受苦更多的人
"Like Jesus suffered worse than anyone"
”就像耶稣受的苦比任何人都多一样，“
He told me last night
他昨夜对我说
"When God abandoned him"and
“在上帝抛弃他时。”
September 20
9月20日
We've been playing in the yard
我们在小院中玩耍
Lately his spirits are high
近来他精神头很不错
Although his blood counts aren't
但他的血常规结果就截然不同了
October 14
10月14日
He feels tired all the time
他无时无刻不感到疲倦
November 30
11月30日
At the hospital again
再次出现在医院
It feels like home when we're here
但它就像家一样，只要我们陪伴在他身边
December 8
12月8日
He's getting worse
情况越来越糟
January 19
1月19日
We buried our son today
我们埋葬了我们的儿子
Our youngest child
我们的幼子
And while his death was ugly
即使他的死亡过程十分可怖
We must not
我们决不能
Let it scare us from God
让它将我们从主的身边驱散
Abundant grace has restored him
充盈的圣光环绕中
A brand new body
他重获崭新的身躯
And set him free from the torture
将他从痛苦中免除
Finally rid of the cancer
终于摆脱了癌症的困扰
Before the moment he left
当他离去的一刹那
He briefly wrested from death
他短暂地从死神处挣脱
Suddenly opened his eyes
猛然睁开双眼
Said "I see everything"
说道：”我洞悉了一切。“
"I see everything"
”我洞悉了一切。“
And I will never forget it
我永远也不会忘记
The peace and the comfort
你在痛苦中所展现的
You displayed through a pain
那份平静与慰藉
That I can only imagine
一份只存在于我想象中的痛苦
The loss of a child
从幼子的痛失
To the torture of cancer
到癌症的困扰
Help me
救救我呐
Cause I can only imagine
因为我只能想象
How you recovered
你如何痊愈
Kept your faith
保持的你的信念
And held the brightness of life
将世间的光明
Inside the smile of a child
存储在一个孩童的笑容之中
You had to bury
你必须埋葬
And I will never forget him
而我永远不会忘记他
Or your steadfast faith
和你的坚定不移的信念
No I will never forget you
不我永远不会忘记
Now six or seven years later
六七年一晃而过
I'm devoid of all faith
我失去了一切信念
I am empty of comfort
失去了一切慰藉
And I am weary of waiting
我对等待感到疲倦
Though I've felt nowhere what you have
尽管我没感受到哪怕一点你当时的感受
I see nothing at all
我一无所知
Though I've felt nowhere what he did
尽管我没经历哪怕一点他的经历
My eyes are closed
我的双目紧锁