Starting Over (feat. Ben Bridwell of Band of Horses)
Those 3 plus years, I was so proud of
那三年多的时间,我曾为之非常自豪
And I threw ‘em all away for 2 Styrofoam cups
然后因为多喝了两杯把它们全部抛到脑后去了
The irony, everyone will think that he lied to me
讽刺的是,所有人都会觉得他们对我说了谎
Made my sobriety so public, there’s no fuckin’ privacy
将我的清醒公之于众，没有一点隐私可言
If I don’t talk about it then I carry a date
如果我没有不提起它,那我就代表着一个日期
08-10-08, but now it’s been changed in every..
08年10月8日，但现在一切都已经变了
When they put me in some box as a saint
他们把我捧得高高在上仿佛一个圣人
I never was, it’s the false prophet that never came
我从没有过，那就是个错误的预言，永远不会实现
And well they think that everything that I written has all been fake
现在他们觉得我说的一切都是假的
Oh well I’ll just take my slip to the grave
我会一直带着我的错误到坟墓里了
Uh, what the fuck are my parents gonna say?
我的父母会说些什么呢？
The success story that got his life together and changed
那个让他改变并重新生活的成功故事
And you know what pain looks like
你知道那种痛苦是怎样的吗
When you tell your dad you relapsed then look him directly into his face
当你告诉你的父亲你复吸了然后直直地看着他的脸
The seat on your shoulder’s the seemingly heavy weight
你肩头的重量看起来无比沉重
I’ve been seeing tears like this on my girl
我曾在我的女友脸上也看到这样的眼泪
In a while the trust that I once built’s been betrayed
短短的时间里我曾建立起来的信任也瓦解了
But I’d rather live telling the truth than be judged for my mistakes
但我宁愿讲出事实，而不是接受来自错误的评价
The falsely held up, given props, loved and praised
虚假的推迟，喝彩，爱和赞美
I guess I gotta get this on the page
我猜该把它（告诉大家自己复吸）提上日程了
Feeling sick and helpless, lost the compass where self is
我感觉到难受和无助，失去了自己
I know what I gotta do and I can’t help it
我知道我该做什么但我控制不了自己
One day at a time is what they tell us
一天一小步慢慢来（戒毒时的方法） 他们这样告诉我们
Now I gotta find a way to tell them
现在我必须找个方式告诉他们
上帝帮帮他们
God help ‘em
一天一小步慢慢来 他们这样告诉我们
One day at a time is what they tell us
现在我必须找个方式告诉他们
Now I gotta find a way to tell them
我们失败的如此彻底
We fell so hard
现在我们必须赢回我们失去的东西
Now we gotta get back what we lost.. lost..
我以为你们会离开
I thought you’d go
但你们却一直和我在一起
But you were with me all along.. along..
每一个孩子来到我面前
And every kid that came up to me
说我的音乐是他们刚戒毒的时候听的
And said I was the music they listened to when they first got clean
现在看看我，也就清醒了几天
Now look at me, a couple days sober
正在和自己的心魔战斗
I’m fighting demons
在东部的那个匿名互助会上
Back of that meeting on the east side
我浑身发抖，希望没人没看见
Shaking tweakin', hope that they don’t see it
希望没有人在看
Hope that no one is looking
希望没有人注意躲在卫衣下失败的我
That no one recognizes that failure under that hoodie
我坐在后排交叉双臂浑身发抖
Was posted in the back with my hands crossed shooken
他们叫我发言，我让下一个人说，他们和我说话，我起身准备走出这个屋子
If they call on me I’m passing, if they talk to me I’m booking out that door
但在我走到门口之前，有人叫住了我，问“你是macklemore吗？”
But before I can make it somebody stops me and says are you Macklemore?
或许现在说这不太好
Maybe this isn’t the place or time
我就想说如果不是《otherside》（莫莫的成名作）我不会走到今天
I just wanted to say that if it wasn’t for other side I wouldn’t have made it
我只是低头看着地板然后说谢谢
I just look down at the ground and say thank you
她说，她清醒了9个月，她为此非常感激
She tells me she has 9 months and that she’s so grateful
她眼中带着泪，看起来就像她马上就要哭了
Tears in her eyes, looking like she’s gonna cry.. fuck!
我清醒了不到48个小时，她却把我当成智慧的高僧
I barely got 48 hours, treated like I’m some wise monk
我想告诉她我复吸了但是我不能
I wanna tell her I relapsed but I can’t
我只是和她握手并祝福她
I just shake her hand and tell her congrats
回到我的车上，我又迷失了
Get back to my car and I think I’m tripping yea
因为上帝写了《otherside》，我只是拿着笔
Cause God wrote Otherside, that pen was in my hand
我只是个有缺陷的人，我搞砸了
I’m just a flawed man, man I fucked up up
就像其他人一样，我只是认为我不会搞砸
Like so many others I just never thought I would
没想到我会这样，没有捡起圣经
I never thought I would, didn’t pick up the book
想自己完成戒毒，结果却没那么好
Doin’ it by myself, didn’t turn out that good
如果我能成为一个戒毒的例子
If I can be an example of getting sober
那我也可以成为一个重新开始的例子
Then I can be an example of starting over
如果我能成为一个戒毒的例子
If I can be an example of getting sober
那我也可以成为一个重新开始的例子
Then I can be an example of starting over
我们失败的这么彻底
We fell so hard
现在我们要赢回失去的一切
Now we gotta get back what we lost.. lost..
我以为你们会离开
I thought you'd go
但你们一直和我在一起
But you were with me all along.. along..
我们失败的这么彻底
现在我们要赢回失去的一切
We fell so hard
Now we gotta get back what we lost.. lost..