Home Tonight

87 Cavalier on the corner of third and broad
Where the city looks pretty but the dirt merchants walk
Its days like this that make women like her perfect
And women like her that make men like me nervous
Im sitting slanted so I see her from the sideview mirror
and in fear that she my recognize my move
I sit back and act like I didnt notice, that the two of us engaged in a gaze for a moment
She drives off and I watch her disappear
Adhere to my memory
Right in the clear of the sensory perception is the fear
That 'Ill never be accepted by the people i respect on the real'
As I stumble through a sentence, she reacts with a grin
When I dream, there aint a soul to bring me back with a pinch
I could act like a pimp, I could be a soulmate, I could learn her geography and plot my escape
'Wait' she always says
So we stay in bed for days
And Im staring at her ceiling to the minute she awakes and I fake
Like her lips are angelic to the touch
And she tells all her friends, that we NEVER fell in love
And wed meet like this for weeks, and the passion would decrease
till the afternoons would creep along the face of the clock
Were addicted to the manner that our shoulders interlock
And we know the boat will rock till we motion it to stop and
we slowly hope the knot in our stomachs will unravel
It doesnt, seduction is a never ending battle
I cant help the way Im tempted by your shadow
Always mourning after with resentment in a capsule
Shes getting fragile, I see it in her nudity
Says she doesnt feel like she used to feel usually
Wears tears beautifully, love doesnt sing, now we both sit alone
by a phone that doesnt ring
Shes drilling in my head again, Im building up a better fence
I never want to let her in shes killing my intelligence
Im feeling out my element and dealing with the hell I spent
Refilling all these medicines
in hopes she couldnt tell Im bent on breaking away
only for the benefit of broken hearts that reminisce
and stroke the scars I left them with
Ive always been a pessimist and never liked scars
If, I, never start it then Ill never think of ending it.
Two Steps forward, two steps back
Two steps forward saved me two steps back
(I let her pass)