highschool

Twelve years old, I suddenly felt the world look at me
十二歲那年，我猛然發覺整個世界都將目光聚焦於我身上
My bones, every inch of my body, size ten
我的每一寸骨骼，乃至身體的每一個部分
Size three, no size made me happy
十碼，三碼，找不到一個讓我滿意的尺碼
Seventeen, same thing, just wishing I was anyone but me
十七歲時，情況依舊毫無改善，我只希望我有所改變
Nineteen, Im still waiting for the day
十九歲了，我依舊期盼著那一天的到來
I dont hate myself for what I ate
一日三餐的內容不足以讓我怨恨自己
Numbers change but I look the same
歲月的侵蝕也不足以讓我的樣貌有哪怕一絲絲改變
They say one day, youll grow old and itll go away
他們說終有一天，當你老去之時，情況便會有所好轉
I thought all of this ended in high school
我曾幻想著這一天在高中畢業之前就來到
I thought I wouldnt I feel the way I do
我想我便是那個口是心非的人
Everyday I wish that I could be someone new
每時每刻我都嚮往著能夠成為一個全新的自我
Ive nevеr looked in the mirror and saw what I wanted to
但鏡中的那個人總會將我的美好念想擊得粉碎
Its impossiblе to be what I want myself to be
想要成為理想中的樣子幾乎是無稽之談
How will I ever be happy?
怎樣才能讓我緊皺的眉頭鬆弛一下
How will I ever love me?
怎樣才能讓我的嘴角上揚一絲
I thought all of this ended in high school
我曾幻想著這一天在高中畢業之前就來到
But I was wrong cause I feel the way I did and the way I do
但事實上我錯了，我的一舉一動都遵從著大腦的支配
Everyday I wish that I could be someone new
每時每刻我都嚮往著能夠成為一個全新的自我
Ive never looked in the mirror and saw what I wanted to
但鏡中的那個人總會讓我的美好幻想化作浮雲