Silver Eyelashes

This is the beginning of a song about the end of our lives
Honey, don't get me wrong when I say
I hope you die soon
I hope you live hard
I hope it's dark now in your room
I hope your heart becomes stone
I hope it's heavy
I hope it feels like you died, and then you do
If I can't have you, I don't want anyone else to
Robot works good today, you can self-medicate
You can swim the sea without the waves
I can't believe your silver eyelashes
I can't believe how the mermaid fades
I know you hide your love away
Somewhere inside your perfect body
You're not alive, you're just alone
I hope you die slow on shiny lies he made you believe
And then he leaves, he leaves, he leaves
And you have nothing left except to come back to me
Do you feel anything?
Do you feel feel anything yet?
I only want my hands around your neck
Your sweet sweet breath when you drink all night and sleep like the dead
I hope I die soon
I'm so numb it wouldn't hurt
And you're just waiting like a landmark to get saved
And my heart's already stopped beating
And I've loved you in the most pathetic ways
But if I can't have you, I don't want anyone else to