hate myself (voice memo)

Could it be different?
did I ruin the day?
oh, do you look angry?
oh, what did I say?
Filling in the gaps
build a problem that
neither of us need
something wrong with me.
Im getting desperate
losing my mind
how do we get here
every time?
One will fold their arms
one will do the dance
really is no need
something wrong with me.
No, I dont think I can help it
Oh so illogical, Im not magical - I cant read your mind!
but how can you not hear the whole conversation I have sitting still with a brain on fire?!
I know its a me thing
eyes closed, isnt helping
when you go quiet, I hate myself .
when you go quiet, I hate myself.
look at you sideways
playing a game
what if I laugh now?
I think Im insane.
Filling in the gaps
build a problem that
neither of us need
something wrong with me.
Pushing a boundary
something to prove
strong expectation
you already lose
oh, one will fold their arms
one will do the dance
really is no need
something wrong with me.
No, I dont think I can help it
Oh so illogical, Im not magical I cant read your mind!
but how can you not hear the whole conversation I have sitting still with a brain on fire?!
I know its a me thing
eyes closed, isnt helping
when you go quiet, I hate myself.
when you go quiet, I hate myself.
Give me a mystery
maybe theyll bloom for me
its always the quiet ones
oh something here must be done
Im open andready here
I dont think they get me, dear
Im only proving how
Im only worth losing now
Give me a mystery
maybe theyll bloom for me
its always the quiet ones
something here must be done
Im open and ready here
I dont think they get me, dear
I dont think they get me, dear
Give me a mystery
maybe theyll bloom for me
its always the quiet ones
something here must be done
Im open and ready here
I dont think they get me, dear
I dont think I can help it I dont think
When you go quiet I hate myself
I dont think I can help it No I dont think
When you go quiet I hate myself