just for today

Honestly, I didnt think Id end up here this time
說實話我不認為自己會在這一刻就放棄
Or anywhere at all, Im distant just enough to never fall behind
或是在任何一刻我永遠不會落後於他人
Picturing the saddest scene of wearing bedsheets
將最悲傷的時刻裹挾在被單之下的場景描摹
And two pats on the back, 'It just takes time'
在我背後輕輕拍了兩下說道這需要時間
Its getting late, since when did taking time take all my life?
天色漸晚何時抽出時間已經需要佔用我的整個人生

Mommy
母親
Im afraid Ive been talking to the hotline again
恐怕我又撥打了那個熱線
Its stirring
我的心緒不寧
But the ripples always seek out the ones who carry me
但感情的波浪總是能抵達那背負我前行之人

I blocked out the month of February for support
我試著忘卻那個尋求他人幫助的二月
At least I have this year, I wont be worrying anyone on tour
至少我擁有了全新的今年不用在巡演上為任何人擔憂
As we speak, Im here to meet devils for tea
當我們交談猶如和惡魔共進茶飲
Peering round the corner of my life
將我人生的每個角落窺視
I throw my drink into the faces of my demise
我倒掉杯中的飲品準備直面死亡

At thirty
三十歲時
Your honeys gonna ask you, 'What the hell is wrong with me?'
你親愛的也許會問你我這是出了什麼問題
And finally
最終
An answer from your throat comes crawling and you can proceed
會有一個答案從喉口流露人生也得以前行