掙扎

Everyone around me seems so hateful
周圍所有人都令我憎惡
Evil still exists inside of angels
天使的內心依然是邪惡
Never knew that life would be so painful
從不知生活會如此艱難
Dont know who to trust Im in danger
也不曉與誰能建立信任
SAXON:
Maybe I am cocky
也許我太驕傲
Tired of everything now I feel like a zombie
麻木且厭倦所有事
Everything is heavy
一切都很沉重
I got ASD but it barely kills me
我逐漸自閉但靈魂依在
Nothing impressed me
沒有什麼能使我振作
I feel less driven I stuck in the tv
我失去動力對著電視發呆
Dont tryna tease me
別再來戲弄我
Im out of here and letting my pain leave
我會帶著我的痛苦離去

Everyday feels like the same
每天都是一樣
Every moment got me cry for the pain
每分每秒都會讓我感到崩潰
Aint that funny I feel bad for me
很好笑吧我為自己感到難過
Laugh at me and shut my door quickly
嘲笑我吧把我封閉自己的世界裡
Not even kidding
我不把它當作兒戲
Ive thought bout suicide for couple times
我無數次想把自己推向生命的盡頭
I know its not the end
但我知道那不會是我的結局
Cuz I still wanna see u at the night time
因為我還想在每個夜晚跟你相見

Everyone around me seems so hateful
周圍所有人都令我憎惡
Evil still exists inside of angels
天使的內心依然是邪惡
Never knew that life would be so painful
從不知生活會如此艱難
Dont know who to trust Im in danger
也不曉與誰能建立信任
JSEVIL:
Hate me or love me
別讓我在海裡沉溺
感受過窒息才會懂得去珍惜氧氣Stop lying to me
如何驅趕我的恐懼
對被你的影子充滿了的恐懼
頭頂烏云密布似乎光明被你永久性地佔據
現實與信念似乎都在一念間被我碾碎
難道我們的生活真的就離不開痛苦交織的點綴
Oh God 別再給我希望我早都已經放棄掙扎
丟掉夢想拿起行囊也許才是你們口中的成長
SAXON:
Everyone around me seems so hateful
周圍所有人都令我憎惡
Evil still exists inside of angels
天使的內心依然是邪惡
Never knew that life would be so painful
從不知生活會如此艱難
Dont know who to trust Im in danger
也不曉與誰能建立信任