Chaos

What is peace without chaos
沒有混亂的和平算什麼
And lately what planet has god been on
最近上帝又在哪個星球呆著
Why am I constantly just getting **** on
為什麼我總是在胡扯
Everythings changed now it all feels like a spin-off
如今一切都變了所有東西都在被拆解
I guess its my problem for caring it too much
我想這是我太在意的問題
The universe gave me more love
這個世界給予我的愛
Than regular people can dare bear to touch
比普通人所能承受的更多
But thats the reason that everythings ****ed
但這就是一切都被搞砸的原因
Theres a knife in my back
我的背後頂著一把刀
And I cant lay down
我不能躺下
So when I die place my face to the ground
所以當我死的時候我的臉要朝向地面
Full disrespect my self-hatred is now
努力忽視對自己的厭惡
The only thing I have been thinking about
是我現在唯一在想的事
Ive been solving my problems with drugs and some sex
我一直在解決我的毒品和性的問題
I fit in this zip got me feeling correct
這樣做讓我覺得我是對的
I aint origami wont fold I wont bend
我又不是摺紙可以隨意折疊我不會屈服
But thats in the depths of my head
但一切都只存在我的腦海深處
I dont sleep I just stress when I dead
我睡不著因為死亡讓我感到緊張
I dont forgive and Ill never forget
我不會原諒我也永遠不會忘記
You should sleep where my clothes would be kept
你本應躺在我堆滿衣服的衣櫃裡
You should sleep in the rain with no roof on my head
你本應長眠於雨中而不是為我遮蔽
I got drugs I got pain and regrets
我一邊吸毒一邊感到痛苦和愧疚
Lifes got me failing the test
生活讓我徹底失敗
What can you give when youve given your best
當你已經竭盡全力的時候你還能付出什麼
100% nothing less
100% 沒有更少
Might as well rip my heart out of my chest
還不如把我的心從胸口裡挖出來
And leave me for dead
就這樣讓我死去
Last year alone I had 20 attempts
僅去年一年我就嘗試了20次
Had 20 doctors say I need the meds
有20個醫生說我需要藥物治療
Had 20 therapist mess with my head
那20個治療師把我弄成了瘋子
Pop (?) and then I ran out of breath
砰(?) 我喘不過氣
Saw the light but had no hands to guide me
我看見了光卻沒有人來指引我
I stubble right through her blindly
我盲目地在死神手下掙扎
Fell back to earth but Im fine, see
墜落到地面但我很好明白嗎
If you wanna die quick then go be just like me
如果你想快點死那就像我一樣
Yeah
耶