I'm Trying

She said im not pointing fingers
He said yes you are
cause you wouldnt bring it up if you werent
If i told you id been walking
Out in the dark night thinking
Would you take as truth this alcoholics word
I cant change whats done is done
But i can tell you this
Not a day goes by that i
Dont curse myself and all my sins
And i need you to hold on to
While this part of me is dying
And though i havent kicked the demons
That haunt me
Im trying
Im trying
She sat down on the floor
And said i wish i was stronger
Right now i feel fragile as glass
I want to believe you
Believe whats held you has freed you
And i hate these doubts
That keep on coming back
My parents think im crazy
For staying here this long
But theres nothing more i want for us
Than to prove to them theyre wrong
I dont want to be afraid
I dont want to think youre lying
And though i havent found the faith
That i need
Im trying
Im trying
He asked do you want me to leave
cause if you do you know i will
But she said much to his disbelief
No i love you still
Oh i love you still
He said i dont know why ive been the fool
But i can tell you this
Not a day goes by that i
Dont curse myself and all my sins
Then he dropped down to his knees
By now they both were crying
He said i havent been the man i want to be
But im trying
Im trying
Im trying believe me
Im trying