Loose Prayers

They steady asking when yo time come
"*****, what you waiting on?"
I check the watch on my wrist, the seconds pace
5:29 P.M. I crack a smile cause 5:30 on the way, eh
Losing my balance, made it through another day
Man, I've been faking on a lot of ****
Ain't been as happy as I should
Been running through the woods in my mind
Time after time, I lose myself
Hitting trees, tryna make something good about my situation
Quit that is something I never could
I pray for sunshine, be by my angels in the clouds
From the skies where the rain be comin' down on my life
Do I come before the dawn?
Can't tell my days from the night
This holiday, see I've been going through changes
Don't know what phase I'm in
Close my hands and shed a tear before I say Amen
Pay for no works is dead, befo' the grind I pray again
Don't know who down for me
My home brother ****** me over
Stabbed me in my back then got the **** from round from me
Like who I trust out here, friends is foes
Family hold me on occasion
Like where the **** do I go?
Oh, my woman love me but she gets my worst
And she deserve better
Cause she been right for me through whatever
Put her hand on my chest told me baby it's goin' get better, oh
She motivate me to get my **** so together and
Hard times don't last long, *****, but life don't neither
This for them times where I felt like I don't need me neither
I promise one day that imma make it out of here
Sinning every day I'm living like you ain't there
Sending these loose prayers
Meaning these loose prayers
My momma told me lay all my problems by the Lord
Poppa told me problems I something I gotta weigh up
I'm sending loose prayers, uh
I say: "nam myoho renge kyo", Prepare your soul for war
Chanting is equal spiritual, spiritually I'm evolved
They say they stand for y'all but keep everything but the Lord
They took his name out the bible and replaced it with God
And I've been writing prayers on this loosely
Praying that Lucifer lose me
Because this noose only boost me to speak the real
And until we seek the health, we will never be healed
And I find it to be the reason our saviour was killed
I see a lot of folks at church but can't poke no scriptures
Can't trust the pastor, in my eyes he just a hopeless *****
Cause he ain't healin', he just here to help us cope with sinning
Revoke the system, back against the wall I know that feeling
Say you ain't got your fringes on but you keep the Lord
And all that sinning in your booth ain't help you speak to ya
And do the rhyming in 31:6 tell me don't fear
Cause He here if I ever need to talk
So I'm sending loose prayers
I promise one day that imma make it out of here
Sinning every day I'm living like you ain't there
Sending these loose prayers, meaning these loose prayers
My momma told me lay all my problems by the Lord
Poppa told me problems I something I gotta weigh up
I'm sending loose prayers, uh
I'm sending loose prayers