My Oedipus Complex

i need somebody wont u help me
I need somebody wont you tell me who I am
I need somebody please please help me
I need somebody u must tell me who I am
Ive been livin a lie so long it seems Ive lived a life time
If u could see what I feel it would make your ghetto lood like heaven
And I believe it stems down from my family situation
I never liked my old man
I couldnt stand to be around him
Sometimes I sit all alone just starin at his picture
My heart turns to stone and I think of this
You never loved me you never held me tight
instead u shook me like a beast to wake me up at night
u tried to make me think that your ways were best
when all I was was an outlet for all your stress
Life its the ultimate sin
A game with no rules that youre expected to win
My personal hells hidden with a grin
Dad take the stand and let the trial begin
U said that oil and water dont mix though it seems cool
Keep with your own and dont **** up our gene pool
U shouldve went to school like your bigger brother
but you played the fool with a different color

Runnin ship with a whip
I tried to keep up but I kept getting tripped
Money made u so wise
how could u look thru my face and not see your own eyes
Do as i say and not as I do
but I cant cuz when I look in the mirror I see u
And oh the pain how it hurts
it was always your home and your business that came first
U said a man is as good as his word
but your mind was closed and mine never herd
They say the nut dont fall far from the tree

look at u then look at me...
U aint nothin to me uve never been to me
And all u ever gave a damn about was money see
So now **** u man you aint **** to me
And its the day that I die of this hate that Im free
Now I know growin up son that it aint always been easy

and I know at times I was not always there for you
We never spent much time just talkin or havin a good time
but understand growin up son I never had a dime
So I worked my ass off and I put myself thru college
and everything I have to this day u know I built it all
Oh I wish I could go back and change the years thats lost between us
I wish I could take back some of the things I said to you
Son I said Im sorry...
Son I said Im sorry but still u resent me so
Son I said Im sorry and why do u resent me so
I always loved u I always cared for u
just never wanted U to go thru what Ive been thru
I tried to raise my *** *in family just the best I know
and now Im hated like the devil and for what I dont know
Dahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!