Where I Am

We're told that we're all special at a very young age
But maybe we're not
I know I believed every television commercial
Until my work ethic rots
Internet prepared for a world full of fantasy
Where fear of adversity eliminated diversity
And I need an audience just to have an original thought
And I tried to get right from God so many times
It doesn't feel right anymore
So put the salt of the world in these wounds
And blind me with the light
And let me see this pain in a systematic brain
So I still have some fight in me

The lover in my heart says it's okay to break
Be vigilant cause vigilance is something I can take
The fight that's in my heart says love can't be made
You said loving me is such a pensive way to let yourself break

She said love wasn't always fun, so it was hard to commit
Darling, just sleep on your stomach
So you don't choke on your vomit, getting it in your lungs
It's the only way you could still say we're in love
You said you would never lose a man
Who had to use a paycheck to make you break
He said we'll use the next one to get rid of your scars
But you said you wanted to keep them
Cause you're beautiful that way and if it's right with God
It's right with me, I'll see we're shaming, darling

The lover in my heart says it's okay to break
Be vigilant cause vigilance is something I can take
The fight that's in my heart says love can't be made
You said loving me is such a pensive way to let yourself break
And God, I love you
And I hope to make sure you remember my name
So take these memories and make me feel sane
I pushed everyone I love away and it hurts to say
But I deserved to break

Just sleep on your stomach so you don't choke on vomit
Getting it into your lungs
It's the only way you could still say we're in love
Say we're in love
Say it even if you're being dishonest
I was dishonest when I said
When I said you were better than what I lost