Too Soon

Sometimes its hard to look you in the eye
the mess ive created it stands idly by
and i dont expect the dishes to do themselves
but that sure would be nice
cause i am moving circles, falling back
my past has caught up to me, and ive lost track
of what is history and what is a book marked page
Id always hoped to come back to someday
dont speak to soon
Ill likely shut my ears or shut down
Im mostly floating
and Im not ready to come down
Dont wipe away my tears so quickly
Do you even know if theyre happy or sad
maybe i need to let them fall
clean me out and wash me down
and let me drown for a while
you dont have to hold my hand through this
youve got enough to carry on your own
I think youll need but hands for that
i think for now Id be better off alone
I will be fine,
i need to grow
no expectations please
because i dont know
where im going or where i even stand
im just trying to find out exactly who i am
dont speak to soon
Ill likely shut my ears or shut down
Im mostly floating
and Im not ready to come down