From Porterville
There's a solution to every problem
这有一条万全的办法
I want us together and I love you
我爱你，我想我们能在一起
And I don't want you to leave because we're here together
我不想你离开因为我已习惯和你一起
We're not gonna make it out alive without each other
没了彼此什么都做不了
Please don't go
不要走
Stay
留下吧
...
I chased away a prophecy
我不信什么预言
Cause there's a side of me that subscribes to thrive in apathy
因为我还有着越挫越勇的一面
This blasphemy redeemed the seams inside of me
亵渎(预言)弥补了我内心的裂痕
Feeling better for the red letters
看到这些红色的字让我好受了些
And the sake of breaking from the fair weather to fulfill my capacity
为了我自己我打破了这种局面
When my love for anything is a mirage of joy with petty jokes and laughing
当我的爱像充满玩笑的可笑幻想
I wanted to be the next prophet
我想成为下一个预言家
But once I got sick I started chasing prophets
我厌倦了，开始相信相信那个预言
Performing for an audience and plotting this artifice
为了迎合而设计一切
Of sacrifice and rolling dice to silence a mistress
不得不掷骰子让你安静
Kissing the lips of a nihilist
亲吻虚无的你
Every secret I ever had is back on a discount rack
我为我每撒的一个谎而备受折磨
For sale to a consumer that doesn't know any better
就像一个把东西买给一个不知情的人
Living in this fair weather
只能同乐却不能共患难
Cause I can't love anything that doesn't look like me
我只喜欢和我一样的事物
But doesn't love like you
但他们却不会像你那样爱我
And I learned to love Jesus before I learned to love me
还没学会自却学会了怎样去爱别人
And now I can see why I have this fast paced
现在我终于知道为什么我会这样了
In-your-face approach grace, but no self esteem
脸上所表现出来的优雅里却毫无自尊
So I desperately sing
所以我只有绝望的高歌
One time for the sake of payment
为了报答
One time for the sake of rendering
也为了救赎
One time for the sake of self-proclamation
为了自我保护
But saying it's all for ministry
唱出来只是为了让我好受些
Hindering the thinking of the petty weeks
唱歌阻断了我好几周的思考
I spent writing and fighting the silence
我边写边和沉默抗衡
The past doesn't change because the future tells it to and
过去变不了因为未来还得继续
I'm telling you I'm selling you the swelling youth in melting skin
.
Within this dim-lit broken fist to finally balance salute
我告诉你，为了最终的平衡
炙热的青春在暗黑破掉的拳头皮肤上流逝了
Cause I love you
.
And I fed us all truth, made another excuse
因为我爱你
Cause it's easier to say I love you too than to point blank say I love you
我告诉大家所有的真相，找了另一个借口
It's nothing but a broken melody and I'm sorry but I'm still listening
因为这样比直接了当的说爱你更容易
Cause I was not smart enough to question this
这只不过是一段不完整的旋律，很抱歉但我依然在听着
But I was foolish enough to try
因为我还不够聪明去质疑它
Once we get honest, it's so pretentious
但是却足够愚蠢的去尝试
But watered down is so cowardice
只要我们坦诚相待，就足够自命不凡
And I'm a little bit of both
但是我却做不到，太懦弱了
Just trying to push a boulder over a mountain just to watch it fall
我好像两者都占一点
Praying to God it doesn't fall again
就像只是努力把巨石推到山上后却只是眼睁睁看着它落下
Every thought that ate me alive was published for public consumption
求上帝不要让它再次落下了
Is there anything more pathetic than packaging honesty as entertainment?
每个吞噬我生命的时刻都被公之于众了
Existing extremes feeding pain and big dreams
还有把诚实包装成娱乐更可悲的么
Were the epitome of self hate or were the epitome of self praise
有着助长痛苦的恶趣又有远大的理想
And none of us know what love means
究竟是自我憎恨的缩影还是自我赞扬的缩影
So darling salt the wound so I won't forget
没人知道爱究竟是什么
That every moment I'm not with you is a moment I'm in regret
亲爱的你在伤口上撒盐的事我忘不了
And I love you now but I won't know you when I'm dead
我没和你在一起的每时每刻我都在自责
Cause the response to a generation that did too little
我现在依然爱着你除非我死了才会忘掉你
Was to do too much now we're both sick
这是对无所作为的我这一代的回应
Cause I saw when you were drowning I was wearing a grin
是我们做得太多了才这样的么
So I'll leave you now before the thick of it
因为当我看到你沉水的时候却止不住想笑
Cause darling I can promise you this:
所以当这一切发生前我会离开你
I love you, but I'm also sick
因为亲爱的我可以向你保证
我爱你，但我病了
And I hope you can see some day this will make sense
...
Like back when I told you I was old
希望有一天你可以知道这一切都有意义
I was told I would make some money
就像我告诉你我老了一样
We'll shove out another hit and call it 'Nicole'
他们告诉我我可以赚些钱
And every echo needs a voice and every echo has a choice
我们会忘掉不快然后称它为尼可
But I didn't choose you
每个回应都需要一个发声，每个回应都有一个选择