Cheer Captain

I was nine and talking to God in the shower
9岁时，我沐浴着流水向上帝倾诉
I knew he was busy, said "Sorry to bother
知道他繁忙，我还特地加上了敬语
But why am I so bad at being pretty like my mother?"
可为何我还是，同我母亲一样过得这般糟？
I wanted to please her
试着想要，去讨她欢心
Guess I've always been a people pleaser
认为自己总是那个，去取悦他人的姑娘

I tried to be quiet, play nice
我试着安静下来，去好好表现
But I knew I wasn't doing it right
可心里明白，我未能走上正轨
And I cried, wiped my eyes, and then smiled
我泣下，又擦干泪水，重展笑颜
'Cause they didn't know I was living a lie
只因他们不知，不知我过着被谎言充斥的生活
I don't know when it happened
我也不知，这一切是何时开始
But I don't wanna be your cheer captain
但我明悉，我不甘只做你的啦啦队长

I shouldn't have called, I know he's probably busy
我本不该叫出声来，因为我知道他正杂务缠身
And when he ****s me over I'll say that I'm sorry
倘若他对我吼出声来，我仍会低声下气的道歉
And then I'll take it all off so he says that he wants me
让后我便当卸下伪装，去夺他垂青
'Cause I'm a people pleaser
只因我善于，去取悦他人

And now he's doing lines with the boys on a Monday
现在他要在周一，去同朋友们寻欢
Showed up at my house, all strung out, like, a day late
精神萎靡的出现在我门外
Watched his stupid band at the club, no one else came
我独自看着台上他那烂透了的乐队
I'm a people pleaser but I don't want to be her
纵然我善于取悦他人，我也不愿在此刻伪善

I tried to be quiet, play nice
我试着安静下来，去好好表现
But I knew I wasn't doing it right
可心里明白，我未能走上正轨
And I cried, wiped my eyes, and then smiled
我泣下，又擦干泪水，重展笑颜
'Cause they didn't know I was living a lie
只因他们不知，不知我过着被谎言充斥的生活
I don't know when it happened
我也不知，这一切是何时开始
But I don't wanna be your cheer captain
但我明悉，我不甘只做你的啦啦队长

How did I let it happen?
我是怎样，让这一切开始
I don't wanna be your cheer captain
我不甘只做你的啦啦队长
I was so sad then
那时我心若刀绞
I don't wanna be your cheer captain
我不甘只做你的啦啦队长
Wish that I knew then
希望我能，时时告诫自己
That I don't wanna be your cheer captain
我不甘只做你的啦啦队长