Happy

Since I was 17
从我十七岁开始
I’ve always hated my body
我一直讨厌这幅躯壳
And it feels like my body’s hated me
她似乎也很讨厌着我
Can somebody find me a pill to make me un-afraid of me?
有人能够寻得一颗让我们彼此相互接纳的灵药吗？
Seen every therapist but I’m a cynical ***** (don’t like to talk about my feelings)
又有哪个医生可以帮我改掉愤世嫉俗的毛病呢？（虽然我从来未向他们展露真心）
I take another hit, I find another fake fix
随波逐流更像是一种良药
'Cause it’s easier than healing
这比所谓的治疗更加简单
I don’t wanna be this way forever
但我也不像这样一直下去啊
Keep telling myself that I’ll get better
一直安慰自己，“我将变得更好”
Every time I try I always stop me
但每一次阻止这一切的人都是我自己
Maybe I’m just scared to be happy
也许我只是害怕接受欢愉
Since I was 22
到了我22岁的时候
I’ve been with somebody who loves me and I’ve been trying to believe it’s true
我的身边出现了一直爱我的人 并且我一直让自己相信这是真的
But my head always messes up my heart no matter what I do
但无论我做什么，我的大脑总是把这一切全部搞砸
Seen every therapist but I’m a cynical ***** (don’t like to talk about my feelings)
看过所有心理医生，才发现我是一个不折不扣的厌世者（心里最真实的声音从未被倾听）
I take another sip, I swear it’s my last fix
我保证每一杯烈酒都是最后一杯
'Cause it’s easier than healing
相较变好，放纵真是太简单了！
I don’t wanna be this way forever
虽然我真的不想一直这样活着
Keep telling myself that I’ll get better
每天告诉自己，“我会变得更好”
Every time I try I always stop me
但我还是断送自己的前程
Maybe I’m just scared to be happy
或许我只是害怕快乐后的寂寞
I don’t wanna be this way forever
我不想再这样混沌下去
Keep telling myself that I’ll get better
每天告诉自己，“我会变得更好”
Every time I try I always stop me
但阻止自己开心的人只有我自己
Maybe I’m just scared to be happy
可能是我只有太多顾虑吧
Maybe I’m just scared to be happy
可能我只是不敢尝试真正开心一回吧
Maybe I’m just scared to be happy
可能我害怕开心之后的寂寞吧
I’m so scared of having something to lose
太多不能失去的东西让我开始畏手畏脚
I’m scared of being somebody new
我也害怕成为一个自己不认识的人
I’m so scared of all them seeing the truth
我害怕那些在明处看着真相的人
'Cause right now I’ve got nothing
所以到了现在，我变得一无所有
But I don’t wanna be this way forever
当对现状有了一百个不满意
Keep telling myself that I’ll get better
当所有的自欺欺人失去意义
Every time I try I always stop me
我还是成为了自己最讨厌的人
Maybe I’m just scared to be happy(X3)
或许我只是一个快乐的绝缘体罢了