Happy

Since I was 17
從我十七歲開始
I've always hated my body
我一直討厭這幅軀殼
And it feels like my body's hated me
她似乎也很討厭著我
Can somebody find me a pill to make me un-afraid of me?
有人能夠尋得一顆讓我們彼此相互接納的靈藥嗎？
Seen every therapist but I’m a cynical ***** (don’t like to talk about my feelings)
又有哪個醫生可以幫我改掉憤世嫉俗的毛病呢？ （雖然我從來未向他們展露真心）
I take another hit, I find another fake fix
隨波逐流更像是一種良藥
Cause it's easier than healing
這比所謂的治療更加簡單
I don't wanna be this way forever
但我也不像這樣一直下去啊
Keep telling myself that I'll get better
一直安慰自己，“我將變得更好”
Every time I try I always stop me
但每一次阻止這一切的人都是我自己
Maybe I'm just scared to be happy
也許我只是害怕接受歡愉
Since I was 22
到了我22歲的時候
I've been with somebody who loves me and I've been trying to believe it's true
我的身邊出現了一直愛我的人並且我一直讓自己相信這是真的
But my head always messes up my heart no matter what I do
但無論我做什麼，我的大腦總是把這一切全部搞砸
Seen every therapist but I'm a cynical ***** (don't like to talk about my feelings)
看過所有心理醫生，才發現我是一個不折不扣的厭世者（心裡最真實的聲音從未被傾聽）
I take another sip, I swear it's my last fix
我保證每一杯烈酒都是最後一杯
Cause it's easier than healing
相較變好，放縱真是太簡單了！
I don't wanna be this way forever
雖然我真的不想一直這樣活著
Keep telling myself that I'll get better
每天告訴自己，“我會變得更好”
Every time I try I always stop me
但我還是斷送自己的前程
Maybe I'm just scared to be happy
或許我只是害怕快樂後的寂寞
I don' t wanna be this way forever
我不想再這樣混沌下去
Keep telling myself that I'll get better
每天告訴自己，“我會變得更好”
Every time I try I always stop me
但阻止自己開心的人只有我自己
Maybe I'm just scared to be happy
可能是我只有太多顧慮吧
Maybe I'm just scared to be happy
可能我只是不敢嘗試真正開心一回吧
Maybe I'm just scared to be happy
可能我害怕開心之後的寂寞吧
I'm so scared of having something to lose
太多不能失去的東西讓我開始畏手畏腳
I'm scared of being somebody new
我也害怕成為一個自己不認識的人
I'm so scared of all them seeing the truth
我害怕那些在明處看著真相的人
Cause right now I've got nothing
所以到了現在，我變得一無所有
But I don't wanna be this way forever
當對現狀有了一百個不滿意
Keep telling myself that I'll get better
當所有的自欺欺人失去意義
Every time I try I always stop me
我還是成為了自己最討厭的人
Maybe I'm just scared to be happy(X3)
或許我只是一個快樂的絕緣體罷了