(4am) loops

After all this pain ive endured
I still suffer this abuse
Now i just feed your destruction
And watch at your amuse.
From this cancer that eats away at me
I guess its no surprise
Im a corpse in disguise
With no where to hide.
With nothing to gain, i receive all the pain
I search for my way to make things okay
Just obstacles that tie the same
I could try to survive this game.
Who are you to lie
Who are you to hide behind that high
Of your self obsessed mind.
Im not weak , im not afraid, im not scared
I could try to make things okay, but id have to go away.
Im scared to release
Im scared of beneath
Im scared of you and im scared of we
I make moments into time and you make time into misery
How can i wake up from this bad dream one without you or me