CAN NOT FIGHT AWAY MY HELL

I work so hard, I'm a mess
Too ******* caught up in my head
I try to scream, I try to express
I try to convince myself I'm dead
I'm not free, I'm not me
I'm a reaction of what I've been
This isn't real, I can't feel
I am lost and can't be found
How can I speak? How can I yell?
How can I unlock my own shell?
How can I be? How can I see?
How can I find what's lost in me?
I'm not afraid, I'm not scared
I'm just caught up in my head
Cannot speak, cannot breathe
Wanna run away from me
Cannot scream, cannot yell
Cannot fight away my hell
I can't feel, I can't break
Maybe my life was a mistake
I can't see, I can't hear
I'm afraid of what I fear
Cannot speak, cannot breathe
Wanna run away from me
Cannot scream, cannot yell
Cannot fight away my hell
I can't feel, I can't break
Maybe my life was a mistake
I can't see, I can't hear
I'm afraid of what I fear
Cannot speak, cannot breathe
Wanna run away from me
I work so hard, I'm a mess
Too ******* caught up in my head
I try to scream, I try to express
I try to convince myself I'm dead
I'm not free, I'm not me
I'm a reaction of what I've been
This isn't real, I can't feel
I am lost and can't be found
How can I speak? How can I yell?
How can I unlock my own shell?
How can I be? How can I see?
How can I find what's lost in me?
I'm not afraid, I'm not scared
I'm just caught up in my head
Cannot speak, cannot breathe
Wanna run away from me