Popular Monster

Yeah
I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
每天失神般醒來，
I'm not sure if I should say this, ****, I'll say it anyway
我甚至不知道我能否坦言，淦！長痛不如短痛。
Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
每個人都告訴我這只是一個階段，
I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah
但是我不清楚他們所言真偽，安然無恙才是我想要的，
I battle with depression, but the question still remains
在抑鬱中掙扎，答案始終被迷霧籠罩。
Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?
我感受到的是創傷後應激障礙亦或者是我強忍怒氣？
And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
我的醫生告訴我這只是一個階段
Yeah, it's not a ****ing phase, I just wanna feel okay , okay
這算什麼階段？我只想要無恙，好嗎？ ！
Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day
我掙扎著逃離荒唐世界，
And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
但是我內心憤怒的野獸始終阻止著我。
And it obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
泯滅，窒息，它讓我分崩離析！
'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
我在即將崩潰之際還在尋找著希望，
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I' m a non-believer,
騙子，下賤！我是無神主義者！ ！
I'm a popular, popular monster
我是被全城通緝的怪物，
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
魚驚鳥散， 在墮落中墜入愛河。
I'm a popular, popular monster
我是被世界詛咒的惡魔！
I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
我猶如籠中之鳥無處可逃，
Every wall that I knocked down is just a wall that I replace
不管我克服多少困難，總會有新的困難出現。
I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace
在與另一個我的死亡賽跑中，爭取穩中求勝。
How the **** will I escape if I never close my case?
但是，如果我不放下我的過去的話，我該如何勝出？
Oh my God, I keep on stressing, every second that I waste
天啊，大敵臨城。我浪費的每一秒，
Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
就是我走向深淵的第二秒。
But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
我的心理醫生告訴我，我正在經歷一個階段，
Yeah, it's not a ****ing stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay
去你的，我要擺脫荒謬，我要好好活著！
Mother****er, now you got my attention
骯髒老賊，我已經盯上你了！
I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing
我必須要改變，因為失去的東西不會再回來，
And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine
但是如果我當初撒謊了呢？告訴你我一切安好。
Every single ****ing day
每一天！
I get closer to the grave, I am terrified
我都感覺到我離墳墓越來越近，我快瘋了！
I fell asleep at the wheel again
我再一次在回家的車上睡著了，
Crashed my car just to feel again
車禍只為感覺自己還活著。
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
泯滅，窒息，它讓我分崩離析！
'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
我在即將瘋狂之際還在尋找出路，
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,
卑鄙，偽君子，我是無神主義者！ ！
I'm a popular, popular monster
我是眾所周知的怪物，
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
魚潰鳥離， 在墮落中墜入愛河。
I'm a popular, popular ****ing monster
我是為世人所恨的怪物，
Yeah, here we go again, mother****er, oh
來！面對我！
We're sick and tired of wondering
我們已經厭倦了去追尋答案，
Praying to a god that you don't believe
向根本不存在的上帝祈禱，
We 're searching for the truth in the lost and found
在指路明燈之前尋找答案？
So the question I ask is, oh, where the **** is your god now?
我的問題是，你那該死的上帝在哪裡？ ！
'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
我在即將瘋狂之際還在尋找出路，
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,
小人，卑劣！我是無神主義者！ ！
I'm a popular,popular monster
我是眾所周知的怪物，
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
支離破碎， 在墮落中墜入愛河。
I'm a popular, popular monster
我是為世人所恨的怪物，
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer,
卑鄙，偽君子，我是無神主義者！ ！
I'm a popular, popular monster
我是為世人所恨的怪物。