worried (prod. mental)

Told me not to worry,but it made me do it more
When you walked out of the door I started crying on the floor
Can't believe you'd leave simply 'cause you got bored
But for girls like you I guess that's the norm
And you're a great actor cause I never saw the changes
Never woulda known on the low that you were faking
And now I'm in a rage shakin ',screaming'I can't take this'
Throw my phone at the wall
And it shattered on the pavement
Now my hearts been ripped to shards that
I could only hope to grasp
I been kickin with a homie while we smoking on the grass
Take a step back to the past with every flick of ash
And feel my passion leave every time I have to pass
Don't know why to feel my soul's a pit of blackness
I can try to pin it down but feelings never matchin'
I'm not who I used to be that kid is in the past
Since what you don' t know who you are till you up in the casket
So if we see you f*cked up
By then it's too late
So I been staying up and reflecting all of my mistakes
Already lack a soul and heart what's even left to take
I just take this **** and stride never been the type to break
People ask me how I been I lie and say I'm great but
I don't understand half the **** inside my brain
So I'm flipping through the dictionary trying to explain
I wanna have fun cause life's like a game
Wanna hit the end,someone roll the credits
I try voice my pain but it feels like no one gets it
Took my heart strings and shred em like Led Zeppelin
She'll have you begging for your life in a matter of seconds
She's been hanging with the snakes now she's a serpent
Made me feel this way and then said that I deserved it
She kissed me then stabbed me
So nobody heard it
I barely escaped now I'm broken and hurting