I miss u

I sent you a text and I know that you read it
And soon as I wrote it I knew I'd regret it
Time in your mind make you dead if you let it
I'm feeling so ugly, no photoshop edit
Your files embedded, inside of my brain
They bring me love, and they bring me pain
I'm watching your arm, where-ever you aim
Things aren't the same, since that night at my place, you lit up my world
Dived in your ocean and swirled, running your hands through my curls
You felt like my girl, but I lost you to him, now I'm smoking again
Asking myself if I'm ever gon' win, with my trust and my care
I opened my heart
But couldn't tell if we shared this connection I'm feeling
Im writing this out to address it, I hope that you get it
Cuz I learned a lesson, I follow my heart to end there I said it
With every sentence I write, I'm shining my soul into light
I hope he's not dulling your shine, but hope makes me blind in my life
I hope that I'm right, I hope you're not his, I hope that you're mine
We live and we die, until then were just getting by
So why not just be my side if you're feeling the same
Know what I'm saying?
Baby you know what I'm saying?
For you I go super sayian
I ain't ****ing with games I ain't even playing
For you I go super sayian
I ain't ****ing with games I ain't even playing
For you I go super sayian
I ain't ****ing with games I ain't even playing
Baby I miss you
I wish i could dry out your eyes and just kiss you
Baby I miss you
A little too much
Baby I miss you
I wish I could dry out your eyes and just kiss you
Baby I miss you
A little too much
I sent you a text, a different message and I know you read shit that too
I'm sorry for everything that I do, but baby I can't keep chasing after you
When you know how I feel but you're telling me anyways
You've been ****ing him but you're texting me anyways
Saying you miss me, well I miss you too but I just can't do this shit anymore
You're calling me, telling me come over, and I run to your door
With a full order, that's never gets paid for
Not much to stay for, if this was a cancer of mental stability we'd be on stage 4
I wish I could say more, but I just digress into stress
Baby I wish you best, I know this is right but it feels like we're missing a step
This comes from my heart, it's straight from my chest, and I don't want to lose you
No I don't wanna lose
But I feel like I lost you
But I feel like I lost you
Baby I miss you
I wish I could dry out your eyes and just kiss you
In my perfect world, we'd be together
But I don't know if you feel the same
All I know is that I feel this pain in my chest
With every breath that I'm taking without you
I'm trying to move on but I just don't know how to
And honestly baby girl, I don't want to
No I don't want to
I just want you and it drives me crazy
Been thinking lately that you ****ing hate me
For all of this shit, I'm in love and shit
But I can't touch you
I can't say that I love you
I can't say that I want you
I can't say that I miss you
And you know the real me, so all of that shit it just kills me
When we're together I look in your eyes, they used to stare back into mine
But now I'm hardly even catching a glance, you just gon' stare at your phone
Leave me all alone
But I'm used to it
Leave me all alone
But I'm used to it
Yeah baby, if you knew me
You'd know that I'm used to it