Trust Issues

I took down my guard
And gave you my heart
Just to end up depressed
You tore me to pieces
And now that I'm bleeding
You still won't confess?
The way that you read me
You played me so heavy
It's like we were chess
The place that you hurt me
From being so thirsty
As deep as it gets, I mean
I just get lost in my head, I just wanted us but our lives were a mess in a bunch
So why did you tell me that I was the person you loved, if it wasn't true
Been writing these letters, addressed em to you
They're written in blood but the color is blue like your face, when I'm saying this shit to your face, I'd assume
I'm so done with you now, don't call me or text me, it's just too upsetting
I don't wanna hide in my room, in my bed, with my head under covers
I'd end up regretting it all wrong, which I don't wanna do
This is my soul on the page, opening up and its all on display
Hoping that someone will finally know me, and just wanna stay
And just wanna stay
I just wanna say
I took down my guard
And gave you my heart
Just to end up depressed
You tore me to pieces
And now that I'm bleeding
You still won't confess?
The way that you read me
You played me so heavy
It's like we were chess
The place that you hurt me
From being so thirsty
As deep as it gets
I was just thinking of you, and us
I just have no where to go, or trust
I just keep getting no love, and ****
Knife in my back so I always run
From issues and problems
Can never just solve em, to tell you the truth in this madness
Pushing my mind off of the edge of my canvas
Feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders like atlas
I dial my plug, fill up on gas shit, cause he always gas me
when nobody else does, been stationed here stuck on my own, in my house
I want a home, but you ain't about it and I now I keep doubting if I'll be enough for somebody
You' ve broken my heart, and that shit was as tough like karate
Feeling ours chops, all through my body, the picture gets spotty
I only remember the good, and forget all the bad
But that's where I 'm wrong, cause both what we had
I only remember the good, and forget all the bad
But that's where I'm wrong, cause both what we had
But that's where I'm wrong, cause both what we had
I took down my guard
And gave you my heart
Just to end up depressed
You tore me to pieces
And now that I'm bleeding
You still won't confess?
The way that you read me
You played me so heavy
It's like we were chess
The place that you hurt me
From being so thirsty
As deep as it gets, look