Up & Leave

If you knew all the things that I feel inside of me, would you up and leave?
Or would stand by my side
If you knew all the things that burn inside of me, would you up and leave or would you stand by my side?
Delusional, I just keep on losing all my shit
You don't want to see the demons that been hiding in my shit
I've been dying in my mind, but I've been flying with my pen
Took some time and still can't find, any peace from all these sins
Got me banging on chest, just to feel it beat again
Dreams of moving west, that ocean breeze fills up my head
It got me feed up but I'm shrinking, addictive personality, I can't find any reason
Im falling down with gravity, been sinking with my demons, drinking more than weekends
She called me up, told me that she missed me but she needed space
But she's the one, can't be replaced, I told her baby I would wait
But look at where that got me now, I'm ****ed up don't you love me girl
If you knew all the things that I feel inside of me, would you up and leave?
Or would stand by my side
When I was young I saw my life flash, in front my eyes
And I've been focused ever since, I only care about this grind
From the jump, I had nobody on my side, until you shined in my eyes, girl and look
You were perfect, everything I ever dreamed
It's was you and I till death, or so it seemed
But the truth is we were tearing at the seams
We just weren't lucid, we ain't see
What the problem was, everything was wrong with us
From broken trust to promises, I swear we had the worst of luck
It's got me giving zero ****s, but that shits just to cover up
The fact that we're still not in love
I wish things could be different, but they can't
And girl, I hope well both find happiness again
If you knew all the things that I feel inside of me, would you up and leave?
Or would stand by my side