CAN NOT FIGHT AWAY MY HELL

I work so hard, Im a mess
Too ******* caught up in my head
I try to scream, I try to express
I try to convince myself Im dead
Im not free, Im not me
Im a reaction of what Ive been
This isnt real, I cant feel
I am lost and cant be found
How can I speak? How can I yell?
How can I unlock my own shell?
How can I be? How can I see?
How can I find whats lost in me?
Im not afraid, Im not scared
Im just caught up in my head
Cannot speak, cannot breathe
Wanna run away from me
Cannot scream, cannot yell
Cannot fight away my hell
I cant feel, I cant break
Maybe my life was a mistake
I cant see, I cant hear
Im afraid of what I fear
Cannot speak, cannot breathe
Wanna run away from me
Cannot scream, cannot yell
Cannot fight away my hell
I cant feel, I cant break
Maybe my life was a mistake
I cant see, I cant hear
Im afraid of what I fear
Cannot speak , cannot breathe
Wanna run away from me
I work so hard, Im a mess
Too ******* caught up in my head
I try to scream, I try to express
I try to convince myself Im dead
Im not free, Im not me
Im a reaction of what Ive been
This isnt real, I cant feel
I am lost and cant be found
How can I speak? How can I yell?
How can I unlock my own shell?
How can I be? How can I see?
How can I find whats lost in me?
Im not afraid,Im not scared
Im just caught up in my head
Cannot speak, cannot breathe
Wanna run away from me