I'm Not Ready

One more distraction to keep me from
Laying in the wake of my own destruction
And I wanted to believe that Im better but Im not
So its one more temporary love illusion

I dont want to get in too deep
Making these promises I wont keep
Just hold myself down steady
And hope I can sleep

When I dive
Into another bed
Im so empty inside
Filling up on regret
If Im honest with myself
Im still terrified at best
I tried
Ill admit
Im not ready

Saw my reflection in someone
Couldnt see it coming but I lost who I was
And I wanted to believe I was better off back then
But theres a crack in the mirror and it left me broken
I dont want to get in too deep
Making these promises I wont keep
Just hold myself down steady
And hope I can sleep

When I dive
Into another bed
Im so empty inside
Filling up on regret
If Im honest with myself
Im still terrified at best
I tried
Ill admit
Im not ready
Im not ready
Im not ready
Im not ready
Im not ready
Im not ready
Im not ready
I dont want to get in too deep
Making these promises I wont keep
Just hold myself down steady
Hope I can sleep

When I dive
Into another bed
Im so empty inside
Filling up on regret
If Im honest with myself
Im still terrified at best
I tried
Ill admit
Im not ready
Imnot ready
Im not ready
Im not ready
Im not ready
Im not ready
Im not ready