not ok but its ok

I found peace n comfort in sharing our existence,
I found satisfaction just knowing you were listening,
I found something special
I tried to make it last,
Yet my head hurt me
It pushed into the past,
I tried to plead my sorry but i can not express..
The way this got me feeling
I had to just digress.
I dont wanna be here no more
Im trapped my head
Im trapped in my thoughts
I just wanna be free
I wont have to run away
I wont have to see your face
I wont have to lead astray
I wont have to find my place
I wont have to feel your skin
I wont have a life to live
I wont have to be afraid
I dont need to be okay
Everything seems to go fast
Yet here I am still in the past
Trying to find just something more than what I had with you before.