in search for i

It hurts to think
Cant get the sums together
Would you draw my bitterness
Make the pictures fade
Could it be that I see
Whats beneath when we fall
The truth in ever
Im scared that Ill be
The sentence is light
But my eyes see a different world
And all I do is turn into flames
Will time open my vault
New solution , Im begging
Break the fuse that holds me back
The I is lost in me
But Im ready
To give you the M
It might even be the E
As I begin to search for I
The I is lost in me
Distract, push me in another direction
This wall that I stare into
Its getting old
Give me faith to reach for the new
Pull me apart and do me all over
Ill need a re-make
To make up for my mistakes
What if I stop to care?
What if I let you fall?