Reasons Not To Die (Demo)

I'm sorry the party you threw for me
我很抱歉你給我準備的派對
Was met with such a royal hitch I'm a ***** I
遇上了這樣戲劇化的收尾我很糟糕
Don't mean to be selfish
我並不想這樣自私的
You rolled out the carpet to watch it catch fire
你鋪好了紅毯最終卻看著它被火焰吞噬
It's just another Thursday, my party
不過是另一個週四我的派對日
I cried like I always do, oh oh oh
我又像之前一樣哭了嗚嗚嗚
I flew here to help clear the mess that was me
我飛來這兒幫助收拾殘局
Made up of fear and self hate
這些我的恐懼和自我厭惡
A stalemate with he who shall not be named
造成了這場叫不出名字的僵局
You tried and you cried, confessing your grip was slipping
你努力了哭喊著無奈承認你快要抓不緊了
Couldn't help me, you held me, the shadows began to fade
無力幫助我只能抱著我陰影開始消失了
Here's to the ones
這首歌是唱給那些
The renegades who never run
脫離信仰卻不曾逃跑的人
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
儘管承受了我所有的無理取鬧
Here's to the ones
這首歌是唱給那些
Who hide the bullet from the gun
躲開了槍火射出的子彈的人
Foot down on all of my ******** but won't cage me in
聽完了我所有的胡言亂語卻沒有選擇限制我
Despondent, catatonic suicide queen
沮喪而又精神緊張的自殺女王
By now I know a screw's loose or too few
現在我知道一顆螺絲鬆了或者本身就少了一些
Or worse there's too many
或者更糟糕的是出現了過多的螺絲（糟心事）
But of course, the dark horse
但當然了那匹黑馬
You bet it all in stride
你猜它正大步前進從容不迫
I hope I'm not a regret, a sea -swept
我希望自己能不讓人失望不是情緒失控的海嘯
I'll fight to the finish line
我將會一直抗爭到最後
And I get so stuck in my head
現在我困在了自己的思緒中
Lost in all the lies, nihilistic backslide
在所有謊言中迷失虛無縹緲的故態復萌
And when I can't get out of bed
當我無法從床上起身
And I see the edge I'm slipping from the ledge
我窺見了自己從窗台滑落的邊緣
And praying to Gods I don't believe in for a sign
即使不信教我也祈求著眾神給我一個啟示
Some reasons not to die and there you are
告訴我活下去的原因而答案就是你們
Here's to the ones
這首歌是唱給那些
Who stuck in when they should have run
深陷困境卻無法逃脫的人
Despite all of my ranting and raging so
還承受了我所有的無理取鬧
Here's to the ones
這首歌是唱給那些
Who hide the bullet from the gun
躲開了槍火射出的子彈的人
Foot down on all of my ******** but won't cage me in
聽完了我所有的胡言亂語卻沒有選擇限制我
Here's to my fans
這首歌獻給我的歌迷們
All in until the bitter end
竭盡全力直到最終點
Drink or two to the toast
喝上一兩杯吧全當是慶祝
Not too many though
當然不要喝得太多了