Ordinary

Listen I'm alone, f**k the whole world scares me
Girl I'm holding on by a thread I'm barely
Getting through the days cause I'm treated unfairly
I'm the farthest thing from ordinary
Listen I'm alone, f**k the whole world scares me
Girl I'm holding on by a thread I'm barely
Getting through the days cause I'm treated unfairly
I'm the farthest thing from ordinary

The person looking back at me is the one that I need help again
I tried making friends but in the end I'm by myself again
I rather be invisible instead of overwhelming them
I thought of ending everything instead of f**king telling them
That I'm simply dead already
Psychopath, my head ain't steady
Sick of having suicidal thoughts
I got more than plenty
Why can't I be ordinary
Being me is sort of scary

Cause I gotta deal with burdens that I was born to carry
Stop for a second, look at the time,
I can feel it slip away from me
I said on my darkest days that I'm afraid and it's ok to be
But now when I took at myself
Why the hell am I afraid of me
I'm going for away to a distant place
I'll find a way to leave

I'll open my chest and let you see what is inside
You'll see so many paranormal things you can't describe
There's monsters living in me that are eating me alive
I'm turning into someone I don't even recognize
Who I am (who I am)
Girl god damn (girl god damn)
What the f**k is wrong with me
I'm sorry, I don't understand
They can hate on me, be shady, but my fate is in my hands
They can hate on me but baby they ain't messing up my plans
BRB my vibe is rainy, high as f**k a new Mercedes (idfk)
B*tch the f**k is (idfk)
Always dress like 50's 80's (idfk)
I'm in touch with the creators
I've already met our maker
I'm a sinner not your savior
Taking off, I'll see you later
I'm holding it down for the loners
And people that know that they'll never fit in
And since the beginning
I've been an anomaly living a life full of sin

Don't be afraid to go searching your soul
Because freedom's discovered within
The truth of the matter is that nothing matters
I spit to inspire the kids
There's too many prisons and too many villains
Too many victims and too many flaws
Too much religion and too much division
Too much positions and too many guards
They want me to fail, but ima prevail,
So f**k all the doubters, I'm beating the odds
The facts are unveiled and what they entail
Is everything we know (is) just a facade
Down For the count, I'm about amount
To a clown full of doubt, with a frown to the ground,
What if I would've frowned and without my sound
I wouldn't be where shit just a bunch of pounds
Of flesh and bones
Only heaven knows everyday that I wake is a stepping stone
Take, Take what you can it's game of thrones
Take, Take what you can don't bitch and moan
I took my life on a different road
I want love and peace not cars and clothes
My secrets they better stay disclosed
I'm strange and I can't change that's a know
Got a twisted mind, but I'm wicked with the words
And I simplify what I write in a verse
I'll be mystified when I'm riding in a hearse
Don't sympathize when I die in the dirt
I'm alright but I might wanna listen
I fight fright with a mic from a distance
My whole lifetime I've been a misfit
Once it's over I'm gonna miss it
Agnostic type not a Christian, We cannot define our existence
I'm narcotic, I'm inefficient, I'm psychotic, I'm insufficient
(Thank you sktv evolution)

Listen I'm alone, f**k the whole world scares me
Girl I'm holding on by a thread I'm barely
Getting through the days cause I'm treated unfairly
I'm the farthest thing from ordinary
Listen I'm alone, f**k the whole world scares me
Girl I'm holding on by a thread I'm barely
Getting through the days cause I'm treated unfairly
I'm the farthest thing from ordinary