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Every night the light fades
My happiness goes with it
When your heart broke
You're scarred and you can't stitch it
There's something missing in me
A space that I can't fill in
There's got to be an answer out there
But what is it?
I'm second guessing everything I feel inside within
I'm insecure
I'm sad
I'm not comfortable in my skin
I never chose to be me or live in this life of sin
Some say better days are ahead but I'm not convinced
I lost everything I had
There's nothing left to obtain
I'm followed by gray clouds
I'm over this shit
I'm drained
Drowning in emotions
I'm drenched in December rain
I'll find a way to numb the pain
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Pathetic but poetic
I'm irrelevant to most
All I need is anesthetics
Then I'll be okay to go
Give me everything you got
I don't care if I overdose
Cuz' I'll be a lost cause until I'm decomposed
God I might be finished
I don't think I wanna live
God I might be finished
I don't think I wanna live
I wonder what my purpose
I wonder what it is
I'm a disappointment
I got nothin' left to give
You don't know this feeling
You and me are not the same
You don't know this feeling
You and me are not the same
I'll find a way to numb the pain
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I'll find a way to numb the pain
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Time is ticking
What's the difference If I wanna end it sooner
Losin' interest
I don't listen
I don't think about the future
I'm psychotic
Real talk I got a twisted sense of humor
Man I wish that I was cooler but I'm just a ****in' loser
Quit misleading me repeatedly
And tricking me with words
They deceive me
Now they leaving me
They kick me to the curb
If I cut myself cuz' of them
They won't even be concerned
That is no exaggeration I just speak what I observe
God I might be finished
I don't think I wanna live
God I might be finished
I don't think I wanna live
I wonder what my purpose
I wonder what it is
I'm a disappointment
I got nothin' left to give
You don't know this feeling
You and me are not the same
You don't know this feeling
You and me are not the same
I'll find a way to numb the pain
Novocaine
I'll find a way to numb the pain
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