Through My Prayers

Hard to believe
I won't see you again
We were just fighting when winter began
The coldness of our words competing with the wind from the north.
Still they make me shiver but in a very different way
The pages of the calendar kept turning away
I have some better words now but it's too late to say them to you.
My dream of all dreams and my hope of all hopes
Is only to tell you and make sure you know
How much I love you and how much
I always did.
And yes I know you loved me,
I can see it in your eyes
And it was in your struggle and it was in your mind
And it was in the smile you gave me when
I was a kid
Feels like no one understands
And my only chance
To talk to you is through my prayers.
I only wanted to tell you
I cared Every night after and every day since,
I found myself crying when the memory hit.
Sometimes it knocks me down, sometimes
I just put it away.
Down in my mind where
I don't care to go
The pain of a lesson is letting me know
If you have love in your heart let it show while you can
Yes now I understand
But now my only chance
To talk to you is through my prayers.
I only wanted to tell you
I cared. I only wanted to tell you
I cared.