Heartbeat (Freestyle)
Tonight feels like the worst night of my life Its like the world is endin
Why cant I do one thing right
Except this form of self expression
Every breath I take is painful
Shit went left I lost direction
Now Im left with nothing
Just a twisted lie and my reflection
**** a happy ending
This is real life, no fabrication
I wake up tired I wake up dead inside, I have no motivation
My mind and my bodys devided
I just cant handle this seperation
Listen I cant even hide it
Every song I writes a contemplation
Yall know I come with the bars
Ink on my body to cover the scars
I light a blunt then I fly with the stars Im in a world of my own
Im on Mars
All of my secrets they tear me apart
Shit that you wont even see from afar
DRB Ill always be in the dark
This aint no beat, its the beat of my heart
Yeah, I aint got nothin to prove
Yall know what happens when Im on the track
Im puttin nails in coffins
Yall must have forgot, so lemme remind Im back
Better than ever, but sadder than ever
Depression is tearin and makin me crack
Pull out December Ill make you remember those feelins you tried to leave in the past
I aint pretendin Im meetin my destiny
There aint no savin me
Nobodys blessin me I dont make friends
I make money and enemies
And Im still keepin a hidden identity Im undercover, its killin me mentally
My only medicinesmakin these melodies
Pain in these verses is my only therapy
My only purpose is leavin a legacy
Tonight feels like the worst night of my life
Its like the world is endin
Why cant I do one thing right
Except this form of self expression
Every breath I take is painful
Shit went left I lost direction
Now Im left with nothing
Just a twisted lie and my reflection
Bitch Im what a prophet is
Yeah were polar opposites
Im losin my consciousness
My future is ominous
No one know me, just the old me I remain anonymous
I cant just erase my sins, I gotta face the consequence
Nothins next, I reached the end
My time is up, dont cry for me
I gave it my best
But I just dont mesh with society
I lost myself entirely
Consumed by my anxiety
When I move on from all this ****en pain
Ill do it silently
I never accepted myself cause nobody else did, my life was a lie
Im always hurtin myself when Im all by myself
Its like Im only waitin to die
Ive given up but I had a good run
Listen I swear that I tried and I tried
I just decided Im sayin goodbye
So if you need me look up to the sky
Im gone