she was my universe

I lost some parts of myself that Ill never get back
Its like that girl took half of my soul
She was my Universe
I gave her everything
That wasnt good enough
Now Im alone
I still remember the pain that I felt when I came back and found out that she wasnt home
Im so depressed
I dont got nothin left
Not even a heart cause she made it explode
Late nights
Reminiscing about the past
I was so in love with the thought of her
So attached
I was so naive and I thought I could make it last
That was a mistake
It was over in a flash
Why did you lie?
You said you would stay
I dont know what I did to push you away
It was my fault for trusting a snake
It wasnt real
It was all fake
What am I now but a spirit thats hopeless
Living the rest of my days in a cage
I think that she put me under hypnosis
All I can feel now is sadness and rage
She got me my emotions
I was just someone she wanted to play
Now Im so cold
Im freezing, Im frozen
And Im convinced that Im never gon change
I lost some parts of myself that Ill never get back
Its like that girl took half of my soul
She was my Universe
I gave her everything
That wasnt good enough
Now Im alone
I still remember the pain that I felt when I came back and found out that she wasnt home
Im so depressed
I dont got nothin left
Not even a heart cause she made it explode
Left in the dark now
Im floating in space
She disappeared without leaving a trace
Now shes a star that I cant help but chase
Now shes a song thats been stuck on replay
Shes got no clue what she done to me
Ever since August
Ive been in recovery
Everything happened so fast and so suddenly
All that could mean is that she wasnt in love with me
My planet was swallowed by black holes
This is my funeral, black rose
Edgy, emotional, black clothes
Finished with life I dont have hope
Its deeper than rap
But Im more than a rapper
My story gets sadder
Just flip through the chapters
Theres no happy ending
Just death and disaster
But thats no surprise
Its a similar pattern
I cant pull all the knives in my back
Dripping in blood
Every moments my last
Cursed to revisit the times that we had
She was my universe
My other half
Now shes my memory
Part of my past
My mind is fragile
Its cracking like glass
Stuck in this phase
Always trapped in a trance
Hiding the real me under this mask
Gravity doesnt exist
If it did, then it wouldnt have let you go driftin into somebody elses possession
Im sick
You made so many moves that I couldnt predict
I was stupid and used
A fool for your tricks
Im stuck in your shadow
A lunar eclipse
Now Im in the Galos
An endless abyss
Im hangin on but Im scared I might slip cause...
I lost some parts of myself that Ill never get back
Its like that girl took half of my soul
She was my Universe
I gave her everything
That wasnt good enough
Now Im alone
I still remember the pain that I felt when I came back and found out that she wasnt home
Im so depressed
I dont got nothin left
Not even a heart cause she made it explode
I lost my mom when I lost all that time and I cant help but cry when Im losing control
I was the night
I was young
I was blind
If I said I was fine
Thats a lie that I told
Im in the skies
Im so ready to die
This is my suicide letter thats written in gold
She picked a side and that side wasnt mine
It was packin her shit up and hitting the road