Angel In Lothian

When an angel fell somewhere in Lothian
I was only a child but I trust my eyes
She ? cabinet before me
Like I didn't see that

Said “Kid, don't ?”
With a space station rattling above my head
I shot the day
I shot the day

Back then the other door was always open
I come and go, back and forth, everytime I need
I'm needing you more now than ever
As I'm feeling weak

And I'm clawing that door every bad night
But somehow it's barred from the other side
I claw till my skin comes apart
Until I feel something

Now I remembеr that pain in my mother
Being helpless and reckless and far too young
My brother was spiralling down
He said “Kid, it's not me, it's this town”

?
I no longer have solitude behind that door
And I know drugs that can hold it
You gotta hold it yourself

There was an angel fell somewhere in Lothian
She could've fixed all the problems that I cannot fix
But one day I might have kids myself
And hope that I don't **** them up myself, hey